"The best feeling in the world is kissing someone for the first time when you’ve really wanted to kiss them for a long time."
You built me so high up. I was finally ready and you accepted me. I opened up to you. I was blonde, you liked that because you were shallow. I tried so hard for you. You saw all my insecurities and ran like a child. In the end you left me with nothing… Feeling nothing….like I was nothing. Slowly, with every passing day I get a little bit better. That’s not to say I don’t think about you a lot. There are certain things that trigger memories of you. It’s not fair. I finally find a guy I like again, and who likes me for me, but I can’t seem to let him in. I blame you.
And tonight I let my insecurities get the best of me…
But on the outside it was a fun night with friends full of laughs and memories.
My memory of you is beginning to fade
I am worthless
No one cares about me
As I lay here in my bed I feel trapped by you and all your excuses