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"The best feeling in the world is kissing someone for the first time when you’ve really wanted to kiss them for a long time."

You built me so high up. I was finally ready and you accepted me. I opened up to you. I was blonde, you liked that because you were shallow. I tried so hard for you. You saw all my insecurities and ran like a child. In the end you left me with nothing… Feeling nothing….like I was nothing. Slowly, with every passing day I get a little bit better. That’s not to say I don’t think about you a lot. There are certain things that trigger memories of you. It’s not fair. I finally find a guy I like again, and who likes me for me, but I can’t seem to let him in. I blame you.

And tonight I let my insecurities get the best of me…
-why isn’t he answering the group chat?
-I’m too ugly for anyone to like
-who is he texting while sitting next to me?
-no one takes me seriously
-why is he not talking to me?
-I’m a fat piece of shit

But on the outside it was a fun night with friends full of laughs and memories.


My memory of you is beginning to fade

I am worthless

No one cares about me

As I lay here in my bed I feel trapped by you and all your excuses